I want to sleep. I wish I could. I wish I would.

Im still sick in this never ending cold, now is the cough keeping me awake so I can't sleep and get no rest. I don't know how I'm supposed to last through a surgery tomorrow (watching). Student's should not be sick. If we are then we are bad students, and what are we doing there? I want to be home. I'm not sure I can last another day dragging myself around the hospital. Feels like I'm always sick tho, its this or that or whatever. Why is it like this, and why is it so hard to choose. Stay home or not? I don't know. Dawn is breaking, and I'm still here. My eyes are red. I need to close them. To rest, be still, be quiet.